How about 2 break ups in less then 5 months?

yes, just like that, Fucked up!
No more boyfriends, the idea of my own business made me tired only thinking of it. gave up, just like that..
I am a fucking student trying to pay my rent and food every month, so back to reality. If I want to do something that I like, it can buy Vogue once in a while and shop for clothes once in while as well.
If it was me who broke up? Yes! This time it  was me. And I believe it is worse.. OK it is always worse. But this time I have the feeling that I regret it. I can`t stop thinking about him since we broke up, and I miss him.
I try to get over, try to do nice things, but come on, is it really possible to get over somebody wihout getting a new relationship?
Last time, when my ex broke up with me, I was open to new men and experience, and actually I already had the phone number of this new guy. Now, that I broke up, I am just sick of men, and I have the feeling that Mr. Right is never going to appear.
I am sick of couples, I am sick of kisses.. But deep inside, all I want is, this, ex boy calling me, saying that he loves me, and he will change the things that used to annoy me, and then we can be together again, because by the way, it was the best sex of my life till now.
But this is far away from reality. This is just not going to happen.
The truth is I am getting so freak, I stay online on facebook the whole time when I am not working, hoping that he is going to talk to me. But he isn't.
That is so sad. You may be asking yourself: But didn`t you break up? Why don`t you call him? or do something?
Too difficult. If I call, I will have to go back to him without complaints, and I will have to accept him the way he is. And the way he is means "no future" at the moment.
So, being a dreamer as I can be, I still hope that he will call with all that bullshit.
Or I am just hoping that I will forget him after some time, or after meeting the next Mr. Right pretender.
Well, I have a lot of things going on in my mind now. New friends, a lot of work, a trip to London.
I will be fine, I hope...